Coming Soon: October 2011 :)

We are expecting!!! Okay, so I act like this is new news to me, but it’s not… Max and I have known (and for the most part have kept it a secret!) for the last 5 WEEKS. Talk about going crazy – I’m not good at keeping secrets anyway, so for something like this to be on my mind and not be able to share it with the world has been making me clinically insane. Maybe not quite, but close… Anyway, now for a lengthy recap!

In January of last year, Max and I decided we would ‘work on having a baby’. Honestly, how hard could it be? I mean, for goodness sakes I got pregnant even when I WASN’T trying, so now that I was making a point to get pregnant, it should happen right away, right? WRONG. I will be completely blunt (as usual) and tell you that the past year has been extremely hard on Max and I, mainly because of this reason. Trying to conceive is not the magical/special/giddy time that I envisioned it being. It was for about the first 3 months, after that it got a little frustrating, but I would say months 9-12 of trying were the absolute worst. It made us angry, frustrated, upset, and constantly worried. In January of this year, we decided that we just couldn’t do this anymore and were considering going back on birth control (my doctor’s advice) for a few months to take a well deserved break from baby making stress. However, my laziness came in handy and I just never quite made it in to the pharmacy to pick up my prescription.

On February 4^th (a Friday night) Max, Ryder, and I were about to have a late supper and pop in a movie. I hadn’t been feeling the greatest all day and when I did everything in my power not to throw up all over the plate of rotisserie chicken sitting in front of me, I started to think something was up… As always, I began to get excited as I realized I was technically a little late. Max told me that I was “jinxing” us and that it was probably just the flu. So, I figured it was too but couldn’t quite get the idea out of my head… The next day, Max had to work in the morning and Ryder and I were left alone to the pounding sounds of putting up sheetrock in our basement. I was annoyed and needed to get out of the house so Ryder and I headed off to where else, Target! I was just about to check out and STILL wasn’t feeling well, so I decided to buy a pregnancy test. I knew Max wouldn’t approve of me taking it (but what does he know, honestly??) so I took it right then and there. And what do you know, it was POSITIVE! There was the freakin’ positive test I had been waiting for for the last year in a Target bathroom stall. J I can’t even begin to describe the feeling of seeing a positive pregnancy test and being HAPPY about it! (Unfortunately, my only other experience with a positive pregnancy test was very unplanned, very unexpected, and not exactly a joyous occasion at the time –although I wouldn’t change a thing about it now! –love you Ryder!) Needless to say, I cried the whole way home and Ryder kept asking why and I had to explain “happy tears” to him. When I got home, I got to share the news with Max and since then we have been thrilled…

We are now 9 weeks along and have told all of our family this past weekend but wanted to wait until yesterday for the news to become ‘public’ as we had our first ultrasound! We both felt a huge sense of relief to see our little baby and it’s heartbeat going crazy! I’m not going to lie, he/she still kind of resembled a tadpole, and really only had a head, butt, and body, but still cute in our eyes! It was also VERY active and anytime the ultrasound tech would put the monitor directly over him/her, it would start wiggling around! As for this mom, I have been feeling okay… I feel pretty fortunate because so far in both of my pregnancies, I have never done the whole ‘puke my brains out’ version of morning sickness. In fact, I never really feel sick in the morning at all. For the first few weeks after we found out, I used to get real queasy around supper time. Food just didn’t sound good to me, but as long as I stayed away from it, I was fine. Certain smells bother me, I have had some mild cramping (which is gone now), and A LOT of fatigue, but other than that – I have been feeling pretty good! I have still been able to workout just about everyday which is good, because I AM STARVING ALL THE TIME NOW!!

So for now, life is good! Keep us (and baby) in your prayers for a healthy baby boy or girl… (Although I will say that I think it’s a girl-- Wishful thinking…probably!)